Sometimes this happens to me. I usually don't blog when it happens but I am in a bad place right now. I thought I was doing better but I am sitting here at my desk and feel like I just want to cry and hide under some blankets. I'm not really sure why. I am just so tired of everything. I'm tired of my hours at work. I know that this is the end of the year and it's okay to feel tired but for some reason I can't see the end. Sure classes are over in a week and a half but I still have to get trough finals week which entails many hours spent sitting in the church basement "babysitting" the three college students who have to stay and study all night long. After that I still have youth ministry, the mission trip, and today my boss said she wants me to add a program for our graduating seniors and the parents about what going to college is like. Will it ever end? I am seriously considering starting a Masters program this Summer because I thought that my schedule would be lighter in June. In reality it's not exactly "light" I still have Freshmen Registration to attend to. When I look at the intensity of the courses (9 graduate credits in two weeks!) and the home work I think, "Do I really want to do this? Do I have time to get all this done? What will I be giving up if I do this?" I'm tired of TTC watching my chart looking at the calendar and trying to fit in BD at the right time only to be disappointed in the end. I just don't know. I feel so trapped in this life. I am looking for change but don't know how to make it happen. Where do I go from here? Please God, open a door for me, I've been waiting.
1 comment:
I pray he opens a door for you soon!
My only suggestion- make your own joy. Do something for you, something you enjoy, something that will make you happy. Its so easy to let all the other stuff around us get us down but there is always time for some joy.
Hang in there, Im praying for you.
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