Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Still here!

Wow! I wasn't going to post but then I realized I hadn't done so in a week! Things at work are really picking meaning I actually have important things to do! Also my office partner returned from her 2 months off so I can't be surfing the web, reading blogs, or on facebook all the live long day! I'm glad though, the days seemed really long with nothing pressing to do! I'm waiting to O. The signs are there and the TCOYF software estimated tomorrow to be O day but I still got a negative OPK. We'll BD tomorrow and then we're headed out of town Friday night so hopefully we can BD again Sat. and that should be good. We (me) decided that even though we've been trying for a year we are going to wait to see a doctor. My annual exam is in January. If it hasn't happened by then I'll go to an OB rather than the family practitioner I've been seeing most of my life. I really don't want to get into the drugs etc. just yet. Other than that life is good, still a few more weeks before things get REALLY CRAZY at work. I hope that this is lucky cycle number 13!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Honest Scrap Award!

Hello! Jessica gave me this award while I was on the mission trip I'm just getting to it now!

Here are the Honest Scrap stipulations:
1. Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find interesting and engaging
2. Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog and leave a comment informing them that they have won the "Honest Scrap Award"
3. List at least 10 honest things about yourself

10 Honest Things About Me:
1. The only man I have ever slept with has been my husband. I will be proud to say that to my child one day

2. I am adopted. My parents were unable to have birth children. I grew up always knowing I was adopted and also knowing how much I was wanted an loved

3. I have never met my birth mother. I might some day

4. Since I was in 7th grade I knew I was called by God to work in ministry. Whenever it gets tough or I don't want to do it God reminds me that I am called by Him and I know this is where I am suppose to be

5. I have never smoked pot or done any type of drug

6. I honestly think that if someone paid me to exercise (train) I would do it. I love to exercise and I love doing triathlons but don't have the time to do the training I would like to. If someone would sponsor me and I could train all day, I think I would

7. Even though I love to exercise and do so about 5-6 times per week for at least 45 minutes I am about 15lbs over weight (according to my BMI). I love to eat too!

8. I don't consider myself to be materialistic but I really really want an iPod Touch. I don't know why, I just do.

9. If I could afford it, I'd buy all my food at the local health store but we can't. We buy
most of our produce there and some bulk items but we shop twice a month at Wal-Mart, I feel guilty about this some times

10. I do like my work but if I could be a stay at home mom I would LOVE that, I don't think we can afford it though

I'm sure most of these ladies have been nominated but oh well!

Lindsay at LFT525 She and I share a similar story. She is also trying to lose weight and doing totally AWESOME!

Stacy I just started following her!

Stephanie has TWO blogs and they are so AWESOME! I heard about her on Good Morning America and have used her cleaning techniques and cooked some her crock pot recipes. You should check her out at Totaly Together Journal and A Year of Crock Potting

Donielle at Naturally Knocked Up has an awesome story! I've also incorporated a lot her natural methods in cleaning and eating!

Misty is an amazing Triathlete who tells it like it is! Her blog makes me smile a lot

Amy also shares her story of IF

Sarah another awesome triathlete. I love reading about her training!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I'm back and with the new title of....

INFERTILE! Yes, that's right. AF came along just as expected right in the middle of the mission trip. It marked the end of our 12th cycle "trying" and thus giving us the official title of infertile. Fortunately I didn't really have a lot of time to think about it. I was actually kind of glad. Two days before AF came we painted a basement with a special paint that helped to seal the foundation. The smell was really strong and I kept thinking, "If I am pregnant this is NOT good!" Our trip went really well, we did some awesome work. But, I was reminded that cute little babies grow up into teenagers! No one should have 5 in one house at the same time, I was ready for that glass of wine when I returned. I haven't been too sad about my new label except for yesterday when I volunteered at the Salvation Army and saw 3 very young, poor women who were pregnant and thought, "Why them?" DH and I haven't even talked about it. I think we'll give this cycle a try and maybe move on from there. He did mention to me that he is going to switch to non-alcoholic beer during the week (he usually has one or two beers when he comes home from work). I'm not sure if he thinks this will help or if he's trying to lose weight or what. Right now I am focusing on eating better (ate a lot of crap on the trip) and getting back into my exercise routine. We have a lot of mini trips planned for the rest of the summer so I am looking forward to that. Other than that things should start picking up a little at work as we anticipate the start of school. That's all I have for now! I need to get caught up on all your blogs!

Friday, July 10, 2009

Symptoms? (Updated)

So, I don't have my "normal" phantom symptoms like I have for the past 11 cycles. But yesterday I soooooooo thirsty! I mean I just wanted to drink water like crazy. I have been battling a summer cold so that could have some thing to do with it. Then last night I could not fall asleep and did not sleep well. Was it because of the cold and being congested? I was also very warm! How annoying. I have heard that extreme thirst and congestion are signs of pregnancy. I do not think I will POAS on Sunday. I guess I'll have to wait until AF comes or if she doesn't wait until I get home from the trip. This will probably be my last post for awhile as we have company coming in and then I gone for a week... I know, the suspense will just kill you!

Did I mention my horrible acne? It's terrible! Like these hard boils that hurt and won't pop! I haven't had these since I was in my early 20's and went on acutane! Annoying!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Freaking out a little

So, as I've mentioned before next week (Sunday to be exact) I'll be leaving for the first ever youth ministry mission trip of our parish (I am the coordinator of Youth Ministry). In the beginning I really didn't want to go on this trip because I was worried about the "what if's". Like what if I'm pregnant! BUT I did think it was pretty cool that the kids actually WANTED to do this and my pastor really encouraged me to make this happen. He said it would be really good for our program. We only have five kids going which at first made me happy (not so many kids to worry about) but is now causing me a bit of worry because the five don't really get a long and it IS a lot of work just for 5. I think with a bigger group there are more chances for kids to connect with each other, more personalities. I am also not looking forward to doing manual labor. Don't get me wrong I think flood relief is very important BUT I would rather do the type of service were you interact with people or work with children. But mainly I am freaking out because, what if I AM pregnant????? I'm not stressed out right not but inevitably something is going to happen to stress me out and that is not good for a baby. How delicate are you in the first few weeks? If I am pregnant...even just barely I don't want to do anything to hurt that. I don't know why but I really think (hope) that this is it that we finally did it this cycle. I want to be one of those people who says, "Yep! We got pregnant on our 12th cycle!" I'm trying not to think about it too much but it's hard not to! I'll be 10DPO on the Sunday we leave. I can't decided if I should POAS that morning. I guess I'm saying if I am pregnant I don't want the extra worry but it sounds like even if I don't POAS I'll still be worrying. What would you do?

Monday, July 6, 2009

12 2WW

Well, here I am in my 12th 2WW. Hard to believe. I had a weird cycle this time around. I think I mentioned the low pre O temps in the previous post. I got a positive OPK on Wednesday AND Thursday AND Friday! I have never had three days of positive OPK's. The funny thing was, my other fertile signs only lined up with the positives I received on Wednesday and Thursday. My temp was very low on Tuesday, went up on Wednesday and then jumped the coverline Thursday. We BDed on Tuesday and Thursday. We were super busy the rest of the weekend so when I got a positive OPK on Friday I kind of freaked out. We literally were home for an hour Friday and then off to a party until 1am...not time for BDed that day. Sat. my DH worked all day... almost 12 hours. Fortunately we were very free on Sunday so that worked in our favor. My computer programed said I O'd on Sat. based on the OPK but then it changed its mind and said I O'd on Thursday based on my fertility signs! Confused? So was I! DH being the wise guy he is theorized that I released two eggs and that's why we got the OPK's for three days. He is certain that we're having twins. Too funny! So AF is suppose to arrive smack dab in the middle of the mission trip I am taking my high school kids on next week...great. At least it won't be hard not to drink during the 2WW! I think it will be tough either way. If AF comes I'll be crabby and suffering from that on the trip, I'll also be really sad since it is our 12th cycle and DH won't be near by to comfort me. If she doesn't come then I'll be dying with anticipation to get home and take a test. This is going to suck either way... actually if the end result is a BFP it won't suck at all. Here's to hoping!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

It's "O" time!

Just thought that was a catchy title. Yep! According to all the signs and my OPK I am Oing today. My temps have been really weird this cycle. They were really low for me. Yesterday I got a positive OPK but this morning my temp was above the cover line but not has high as it normally is after O. Not really sure what the heck is going on. The only thing I can attribute it to is that I didn't take Evening Primrose Oil for the first two weeks of my cycle. I took it for part of it but then ran out and just didn't buy any. I definitely noticed difference in my CF. So we BDed Tuesday and will today and I guess that's it. I feel like I didn't do as much to "try" and get pregnant this cycle. Wouldn't be a kicker if it worked?
I am working on a final project for my Masters program which involves writing up a brief history of the organization you work for. I found this old yearbook type publication that our church did in 1989. It was a hoot to look through! I am impressed with how many people are still members here. The priest at the time looked AWESOME! He was only 33 (that is really young for a priest in case you didn't know). He looked like a total hippie. He had a cool 70's mustache and long hair. I asked someone if they knew if he was still a priest and they said "no." See, I think that's my problem. I'm in love with the "old Catholic Church." It's a long explanation but after Vatican II (mid 1960's) the Church changed a lot of things. Of course since it was the 60's some people took it to extremes and the Church got seemingly liberal but really it was just a reflection of the current culture. I grew up during the 80's and 90's where some of that was still left over. With in the last 20 years there has been a movement to return to more traditional Church values. It just kind of drives me crazy. Okay, enough of the Church history lesson.
DH doesn't have to work tomorrow. We are celebration my niece's 7th birthday. I can't believe she's going to be 7! Shortly after I met Brian's brother and sister-in-law they announced that they were pregnant. So I've known her since before she was born. She's my little buddy! We are also going to this annual Karaoke party at out friend's house. I remember attending this party last year and my dear husband announced to our friends that we were trying to have a kid. I honestly thought we would be bringing a little one to the party this year and maybe not even going or possibly being extremely pregnant. Ha! Funny how things don't work out. I am not planning on drinking that much at the part because a. I could be pregnant, b. someone has to drive us home, c. I am probably going to run a 5K on Sat. morning d. I DO NOT need the calories! I am a pretty healthy person but in the last 2 weeks I've gained 4lbs! Okay, so I'm sure that when I "weighed in" that wasn't an actual weight gain of 4lbs since the last time I weighed in but more a combination of water weight and an extremely bad weekend of eating with friends. Last summer I gained about 8lbs and I WILL NOT let that happen again (unless I'm pregnant of course!). Even though I exercise a lot I need to watch what I eat. I think the extreme exercising gives me permission (in my mind) to eat more (or rather eat crap) but that is just not how my body works. I had a really healthy day yesterday, and so far so good today. I actually feel better. I plan on eating at both the parties I go to tomorrow but not over eating and trying eat the healthy options if there are any. If I am pregnant I want to be in the best health possible!
Hope everyone has a good holiday weekend!