Sunday, March 29, 2009

No Christmas Baby for Me

Wasn't sure if I should post this but I found out this morning I'm not pregnant... again. On to Cycle 9. I'm really not that upset about it but as Cycle 12 looms I am trying not to worry about what it means to not be pregnant after a year of trying. I'm trying to hard to be patient with God's plan for my life, this is all part of the journey. The baby shower was kind of fun yesterday. I didn't really know a lot of people there. There were two women who were pregnant one was due in a week the other in 2 weeks, they were huge! The baby was super cute and of course I got to hold her. The mom of the baby said to me while I was holding the baby, "Now you'll get the baby bug! We're already talking about number 2!" All I could say was, "I already have the bug." Which is true. But then again, I did enjoy sleeping in this morning and just hanging out with Brian with no worries. Can't do that with a baby around. I am trying to focus and enjoying my life right now, today, in this moment. I know I can't have this time back!

1 comment:

Shannon said...

Im really sorry that your cycle ended and you are onto cycle 9 (((Hugs)))

I dont know if this makes you feel better but when I went to my second RE and told her we had been trying for a year and a half, she told me that although it SEEMS long, it really isnt that long, especially if we are both younger and healthy. For some reason, this gave me comfort because most of the time, all you hear about is people getting pregnant right away or going to a RE after a year and according to her, it just takes some people longer. Just my (or my RE's) 2 cents :)