Sunday, August 23, 2009

Disgusted with myself!

Okay, so I've pretty much struggled with my weight since I was 8 years old. I am super active. I did a triathlon earlier this summer, I teach fitness classes, I think nothing of going to a Zumba dance party for 2 hours and then running 5 miles the next day. Yet.. I've gained 10lbs over the summer. WTF!!! I just saw some pics taken of me at my first Packer game ever. I had bought a t-shirt in a large didn't try it on until we were about to leave for the game. Before we left I thought I looked pretty good. I was wearing jeans I bought this spring and the shirt. I'll admit I did think the jeans felt a little tight as did the shirt but I thought I looked good. Then I saw some pics and I was like...yikes! You can see my fat rolls! How did I get like this? Seriously I do exercise but LOVE to eat!! I make good choices most of the time but then on the weekends I binge a little. I also do the whole....well I know for sure I'm not pregnant for these two weeks so I'll drink wine every night and beer every weekend (and I like me some REAL beer, not light!). Then for the other two weeks of the month I think...Oh I'm so hungry I must be pregnant I can eat a little more of this or that. Seriously! How messed up is this! I have been going to Weight Watchers for ever and still go and pay even though I don't lose. I was at (or below) my goal for about a year which is about 25lbs less then I am 25 that sounds like a lot when I think about it. I don't know if I'd like to get that low again I just need to get with this...and start making healthy choices. I've been looking into "raw" eating and vegan eating. I would never go that way but I'm thinking about swearing off meat unless I know it was killed by my husband...and maybe chicken too. That being said I'm just going to look at this in 5lb increments. Last Wednesday at Weight Watchers I weighed in at:

173.8 lbs so my first goal will be 168.8...that doesn't seem so bad. My ultimate goal would be 155lbs...18.8lbs to that one...I think I'll stick with the 5lb increments!

I will report back on Wed. I'm now going to make myself some Kale, quinoa, sweet potato dinner!
Notice the two beers..nice! What was I thinking?!

This is me in 2004 maybe not at my lowest but definitely at a healthy weight I'm guessing 150-155lbs

1 comment:

Lindsay said...

As you know, this is something I struggle with constantly. I had a total binge weekend. 5lb goals is a great way to go about it!! GL!